winter carries a lot of daunting memories. with the cold air passing through my body, your memories pierce through my heart causing an unbearable pain.
on a cold night on december when we were out for a walk, you decided to let me know that it's time to part ways. no questions asked, no answers sought, i let you leave for your happiness.
a coldness has made a home in me ever since that dark night. emotional dependency is such a cruel thing. you have it all until that one person is with you. the very next moment that person leaves, you are empty. your existence is a mere burden on yourself.
i have been looking out for warmth in every next thing that you and i have been a part of. "The fault in our stars", your favourite book glances at me from my cupboard and finds its own version of Augustus Waters, deceased and dying.
I seldom wear the sweater you knit for me, cause i fear what if it fails to give me the warmth i wish for and i start questioning the love we shared.
this is the problem with having your heart broken. your plunge into that pool of sadness. there is no coming back. you keep drowning, emotionally drenched and exhausted.
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