Please let me write !!!😇😊

 

Please let me write !!!

To the one who still wants me back,

It hasn’t been long since you last wrote me a lengthy sad message quoting that you still miss me. As usual, I left that message stay in my message box making sure I didn’t delete it. Not replying to you has been a ritual by now. May be you think, not deleting the message has no logic then. It does have a logic, your messages make me realize how much of a hopeless, helpless lover I am.

Quite shockingly, I play the major antagonist in the love story that we once wrote for ourselves. It was my mistake to not realize some people are not meant to be together. And quite sadly, we fell in that category. All I could see was that word getting shattered.

It’s hard to move on, isn’t it? You try every next thing to forget that specific someone you love. You fall short of ideas of unloving that person. Even movies, music and books don’t come to your rescue. You keep on sinking in those memories that are engraved in your heart. May be a lifetime isn’t enough to let go off someone you truly love.

I left you with no explanations offered, no reasons served. That’s the part that still hurts the most. May be you could have moved on if only I had put forward my explanations. But love isn’t always fair. I would rather put the blame on myself than putting it on someone who I left the love of my life for. It was a tough decision to make and you know I am extremely bad at decision making. Imagine how tough it must have been for me.

Your messages still raise a strong question. How justified is it to let go off someone after having made them totally dependent upon you? Darling (if I may still call you so), I don’t have an answer. May be I will never have one. I will let those messages pile up until one day you will send me a message quoting the answer yourself.

May be, for the years spent together, I can make a request to you. Can you not blame yourself please? You were too good of a person for me. Don’t look for the shortcomings you had or any wrongs you did. You were never at fault. May be I haven’t still offered you an explanation but hopefully someday your message will be an answer in itself.